Carrot's Diary

may 4, 2025

was playing IN last night in the multiplayer area and started playing with someone. I complimented her outfit and she asked if she could test out a new ability with me. we took a couple pics and I asked if she had beaten level 5 of the parkour because I hadn't. I invited her to play but I accidently chose level 2 instead of 5 so we just quickly played thru that level. After that we finally beat level 5 together! (that stage was torture) I wanted to play for longer, but I promised my bf we'd watch Pokémon Horizons so I left for the night.

I didn't expect to see her again so soon, but just today she invited me to test out a new ability outfit! The cutscene was sooo pretty!! thanks IN for letting us be gay (I'm the one with the black hair)

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april 6, 2025

It's my friend's birthday this month :D! One of the things I like to do with him is sing in his car, sooo I thought it would be nice to make a playlist as a thank you for being friends since middle school and for all the rides he has given me. I'm not expecting him to play it in his car, just wanna share more parts of myself with him. Even though we've been friends for so long, we haven't shared much with each other. I hope he won't think this is too cheesy. I don't listen to music as much as I used to so it has been fun going back to old songs and listening to music that's been on my radar but I never looked into.

Here is where I'll be leaving little notes about some of the songs!

• Discord: he just started watching My Little Pony and Discord is his favorite character so this obviously has to be in the playlist.


• Copacabana (1993 Remix): i remember us singing this in his car. he was driving us to the mall to hang out with friends. the sun was shining down on us and i felt so alive. i wish i could keep that moment in a bottle.


• I Wish You Love: i asked him about what he missed most about being in love, he said it gave him motivation to improve himself. i said that i hope he finds a love that helps him become the best version of himself. this song pretty much gives off the energy i wanted to convey (except for the unrequited love part).


• In Love With A Creeper: literally had this on loop when it came out. peak lyricism.


• Don't You Dare (Make Me Fall in Love With You): i listen to musicals a lot of the time and i know he doesn't. as much as i want to share my favorite musicals i know they won't hit as hard without context. so i decided to add a song that sounds like it could be from a musical, but it's just a single (im pretty sure lol).


• I'll Sing Your Song: we've been sending each other Hatsune Miku memes recently, and I think it's a good song


• drop pop candy: this song is so nostalgic for me, can't believe I didn't add it sooner

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march 6, 2025

I wasn’t doing much this morning so my friend asked me if he could carry me up two flights of stairs for a physics class. said it had something to do with horse power. I asked why he couldn't carry something else heavy, he said he didn't want to carry those weights from the gym to the science building. He also said he did this with our other friend before so I trusted him.

When we got to his class he asked me to wait outside for the first 20 minutes of lecture, so I reviewed some accounting notes in that time. And in that time I noticed I was too tired to shower the day before. And now my friend was going to carry me. And I forgot to bring any perfume with me. I spent most of those 20 minutes worrying if i smelled bad (realized later on that he was probably too tired carrying me to care too much).

When it was time to carry me he told me to step on a chair so I could get on his back. We have a pretty large height difference so it would be difficult to get on without it. As I got on his back all I could think about was the smell of his cologne and if I could hang onto him. My friend’s assignment partner was waiting at the top of the stairs with my friend’s phone as a timer.

After going up the stairs the first time, his partner dropped the phone down the stairs (his phone is okay). The phone fell on the other side of a small gate, so I hopped over it not noticing the gate could be opened.

After being carried up the stairs two more times, he thanked me, offered to buy me a snack, and hugged me. It had been a while since we hugged, he’s not much of a physical touch guy. I was a bit surprised, but I missed hugging him so it was appreciated. I told him that he didn’t need to buy me anything, but he insisted so I asked him to buy me an overpriced concha.

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december 4, 2024

I've had a lot of impulsive thoughts about doing reckless stuff. In the moment, I feel embarassed when these scenarios pop up. I shouldn't be thinking this way. These thoughts start appearing so often that I wonder if I actually want these things to happen.

But now that I'm calmer, I realize it isn't that deep. There is basically no chance these scenarios are happening in real life. It can be frustrating sometimes, not being able to talk to people about what I'm feeling. Buuut not every thought you have in your head is meant to go out into the world.

Whenever these thoughts enter my mind I need to acknowledge their existence, let them hang out for a bit, and let them go. It doesn't matter if they pop up again, they're just things my imagination makes up when I'm bored. Now that I'm thinking about it, I feel like this should be common sense. But sometimes you forget the small stuff when you're emotional and need to remind yourself.

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december 3, 2024

I was hanging out and doing work with some people I know when one of my friends and his friend said they were going to his car. They've done this a couple times so the rest of us knew they were gonna go hotbox. I've been curious on what vaping was like, and what better way to find out than in your friend's car? So I headed to the parking lot with them, a little nervous. I hadn't smoked anything before. Wasn't really planning on it but here we are.

Got in the backseat and shoved all of his stuff onto the floor. Car was turned on and the radio played while we warmed up because it was FREEZING outside. It was sooo foggy this morning. As soon as it was warm enough he turned off the car and they started to vape. The vape wasn't one of those stick looking ones, it was like a brick. After they started chatting and filling the car with smoke my friend offered it to me. And then they remembered I've never done this before so his friend taught how it worked and how much to inhale.

The first hit wasn't bad. I didn't inhale much, it tasted kinda fruity, and it made my throat a bit scratchy so I coughed. We continued to talk and pass the vape around. These dudes were inhaling that shit like it was fresh air. After it was passed to me 4 times I decided I had enough and just listened to them talk. I didn't feel high at all, that might be because I didn't take in much. I was pretty smiley, but that was because it was fun trying something new and hanging out with my friends.

Overall, hotboxing was pretty chill and I'm glad I got to try it, but vaping just ain't for me.

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november 26, 2024

haven't been feeling good these past few days. but my boyfriend has been the sweetest, i really appreciate having him in my life. plan on doing more gratitude posts like this in the future for other stuff in my life. a good reminder to look on the bright side

• this morning we were walking up some stairs to the library and he mentioned that if he was Orpheus he would've look back. he knows that i'm right behind him while walking up the stairs, but he checks anyway.
  _{(few weeks ago i was rambling about my fav musical Hadestown, which is based on the Greek myth of Orpheus and Eurydice)}


• was feeling sick and wanted to close my eyes, but couldn't keep them closed since the lights were so bright. he made us move to a study room so he could keep the lights off so i could rest.


• been stressing about life stuff (probs why i got sick) and he's been shoulder to cry on. he reminds me it's okay to take breaks, it's no good to work when you feel like shit. did the same for him a week ago, i'm so glad that we can rely on each other.


• went to see a small art gallery with him we talked about what we like about each piece and how we feel about them.


• whenever he buys a greasy grilled ham and cheese sandwich he lets me have a bite or two


• bro is the king of cheek kisses. i think that if he could kiss my cheek forever he would.

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november 4, 2024

November 2nd was my birthday, so I spent the day with the people I care about :D.

woke that morning and started getting ready to go to the mall with my friends. While making rice for the adobo my mom was going to cook, I got an email saying my boyfriend bought me Coral Island!

he said he bought it a few months earlier while it was on sale. he was worried that my sister was going to buy me the same game since I've talked about it a few times, so he texted saying he already bought it XD.

while waiting for my boyfriend and my friend to pick me up, I watched a Halloween parade that happened in New York with my mom, and I let my sister do my makeup.

At 12pm my friend and my boyfriend were standing at my door but didn't tell me they arrived. The only way I knew they were at my door is the security camera. They said they were silently staring at crows for a minute so that's why they didn't knock.

My friend came in with a 3ft banana duck plush, and my boyfriend gave me a paper flower bouquet ^-^

While at the mall we looked around to Pop Mart and sniffed all the Christmas scented candles at Bath & Body Works :> my boyfriend and I got some chicken tenders and our friend got some fried baby crabs, they were pretty good! after that we picked up my black forest cake and headed back to my place.

When we got back my mom and sister had just finished making spaghetti and adobo. I usually have spaghetti on my birthday, but my mom made adobo since she was craving it, plus I mentioned that my friend tried it for the first time a week ago and she wanted to make some for him.

We watched Hercules since my boyfriend had never watched it before. I was pretty surprised by that since he's a pretty big Greek mythology nerd. My mom made us eat while we watched even though we were still full from the food we had at the mall. After watching the movie my boyfriend said seeing Zeus being a good dad and Hera not hating Zues was weird. Also said that Meg was hot.

Playing Uno is all fun and games until you go through the entire deck twice and you're not even close to finishing the game. We decided the winner by seeing who had the least amount of cards in their hand. (It was me, I had 7 cards)

Then it was time to assemble our 'Smash/Hear Me Out' cake. We had been looking forward to it ever since I brought up the idea 2 weeks before my birthday. If you don't know what that is, you print out a bunch of characters you would get with and put them on a cake. The more unconventional the character, the funnier it is. Some of the characters that I included were Deadpool, Swatch from Deltaure, and Oliver Aiku from Blue Lock.

We sang happy birthday, ate the cake, and chatted a bit more until they had to go. After they left my sister, mom, and I watched Caseoh and snacked on chips until we were too tired to go on.

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october 20, 2024

omg hi!!! it's so nice to have a place to blog that's not at risk of being deleted.

i started this website on october 14th, so i've spent almost a whole week working on this. it's been super fun so far, with a few bumps in the road. actually started this site on neocities, but learned quickly that apparently the creator supports AI art and saw people moving to nekoweb. the process of learning html has been super interesting! it feels so good coding a website from scratch, even if it's alot of copy and pasting. hoping to make this site a little less bare :>